I've got

a Life is Good shirt with the words "Good Vibes are Contagious" across. Wonderful shirt, gotta wear it more often!

To hover in sight

I'm 7/9 done with my A levels, and yet I'm still not quite convinced I'm actually in the midst of my A levels?? It's hard to believe for me really, that I'm actually doing my A levels, JC has passed so fast. Ah, kinda expected it to pass this fast, but was never sure how to react to its passing by. Guess I'm reacting now... and I think it's a rather whateva kinda response haha, I'm so looking forward to post-As, December in particular. I'll be away for most of December I reckon hehe, bye bye most of the world I'm used to. Can't wait to play footy at Aitong court too. And have gotta get back to a more recognisable shape too (i.e. erm, try not to have my waistline fulfil the pai x diameter formula). Lotsa soccer should settle that hehe.

Ah, and I'm also fully expecting the anti-climatic feeling that awaits right after my last paper next Wed...

Things that matter

Glad that things that matter were touched upon today. Very glad, because these things matter. Yet it is still the things that do not matter as much that remain the scorpions in my mind, and I cannot help but feel a tad affected by these things that do not matter as much. I had a previous unpublished post that was far more unambiguous but fortunately my laptop ran out of battery before I could publish something to be rather embarrassed about. The weather's been horrible, the days passable...

The 'R' word

So,

not in an unexpected manner the prelims are going as fast as they have come. Going, not gone, but going and going fast and they will be gone in a matter of days which will come and go and be gone in a matter of days - which is fast. I am now examining the Heart of Darkness in greater detail, meaning I will do more than read it lying down on the sofa/bed. Ah, Marlow and his musings. Figure Conrad had much fun penning all his cheem-ness down and looking at it in self-congratulatory glee at the end of it. Now Literature students like me have got to trudge through (or savour?) his verbal excretions (or genius?), to varying degrees of cluelessness (or relating to?). Seriously now, Joseph.
Hmm but you do write pretty well.

So,

=(

Sweaty palms + 3 hrs of writing = :(

Can't believe it... my forearm this afternoon was really feeling the effects of probably the most writing I've done in my life in a week. You need more than finger muscles! And I think I might need an overgrip for my pen haha... sigh, econs tomorrow and then to celebrate Hari Raya and then Lit then Math then a bit of celebration next wednesday!

O.O

Currently readying my H3 paper for submission. Have been at it for couple of hours, albeit without much fruition. Quite painful trying to sort out a 3.5k word essay. At this point in my life I think it is about as far as I can be streteched intellectually...

Anyway, first two papers, arguably the two that need least preparation, have come and gone. Week of hols ahead will be painful... ouch ouch ouch.

YP outing tomorrow, some EPL, church on Sunday. Trying to limit myself to these distractions through the hols hehe.

Toodles! (lol i think this is the funniest way to ciao... and gayest too.)

Prelims start tomorrow!

Could very well have been J1 CT1 tomorrow!

I Cannot Tell

(On the greatest teacher!)


I cannot tell why He whom angels worship
Should set His love upon the sons of men
Or why, as shepherd, He should seek the wanderers
To bring them back, they know not how or when

But this I know, that He was born of Mary
When Bethlehem's manger was His only home
And that He lived at Nazareth and laboured
And so the Saviour, Saviour of the world is come.

I cannot tell how silently He suffered
As with His peace He graced this place of tears
Or how His heart upon the cross was broken
The crown of pain to three and thirty years

But this I know, He heals the broken-hearted
And stays our sin and calms our lurking fear
And lifts the burden from the heavy laden
For yet the Saviour, Saviour of the world is here.

I cannot tell how all the lands shall worship
When at His bidding every storm is stilled
Or who can say how great the jubilation
When all the hearts of men with love are filled

But this I know, the skies will thrill with rapture
And myriad, myriad human voices sing
And earth to heaven, and heaven to earth will answer
At last the Saviour, Saviour of the world is King!

Only fools write off Liverpool now

Read this

and especially after beating a 10 men Bolton 3-2. =S

The first day of my eighteenth year

Eighteen's so old man, so old. Too bad the day had to start with Liverpool getting owned 3-1 by Villa who didn't exactly play Pool off the pitch, but boy do we miss A-L-O-N-S-O. Anyway, day was good for reconnecting some friendships previously unhinged by out-of-sightness and... time I guess, even if it was through texting (which, along with MSN, is not quite the ideal way to converse, but... it's better than nothing). Also managed to save in my phonebook numbers previously lost to repairs my phone had undergone haha. Got a number of messages from such unknown numbers, and each time I got one I got excited by the possibility of it being from a stalker lol . So my eighteenth year starts now, whether I lurrvvees it or not, and I wonder when I would stop swimming against the current. (Actually, I do everytime I do childish stuff. For example, I spent the last minutes of the 17th year acting like a kid much to my sis' disgust. Won't quite elaborate on how I did so waha.)

Faith and...

Well about a year ago I thought of naming my future baby girl Faith. Haha, because obviously I'd like her to have faith in God, which is something that doesn't quite come easy. Man, I wish I'd been called Faith just so to remind myself to have faith haha. Oh and as for the aural aspect of the name, I quite like the -th sound. Though it might be quite a bother to pronounce hah. So I've since been looking around (not quite so consciously, but for want of a better phrase) for a name for Faith's baby brother. And yay, I finally found it like a week ago while flipping through Genesis. And so we have... S-E-T-H! The third child of Adam and Eve, and God's gift to Adam and Eve following the loss of Abel. I think this is a wonderful, romantic notion that Seth represents. Besides coming to mean "the anointed one" in Hebrew, Seth also represents the healing of Eve's pain as a mother losing her son. Besides, Seth sounds pretty cool too heh. Apparently another way in which Seth spelt is Shith, but I reckon I wouldn't be going within a 10-ft pole of that version. So, lucky kids I will come to have, since they will be coming to have such awesome names haha. Obviously this is all subject to changes I have in my head... or disagreements on the part of my future spouse. Ok, setting paternal instincts aside, I've really gotta go sleep now! Mm... Seth. What a great name.

These days

I've really just been going through the motions. Breaks are more awesome than they have ever been, laughing more precious too, and eating and s***ing (at the risk of sounding bestial here hahaha) more therapeutic than usual. Oh, and I am starting to pay off a bit of the price I incurred slacking my ass away the past 20 months. ><

Obviously the presence of The Cheer remains fleeting, as it has most of the year. Change would be very nice, but maybe only at this point while I mention it. Till then, I will try my best to restrain my expectations of myself and others.

Back to ze Japanese Occupation then!

(And speaking of The Cheer, Derek don't you think you should look once again to things eternal? Yes I think and know so, and I am grateful for Monday morning happening even though I might not have looked the part. A timely, albeit delayed, prod. Sometimes I need prods like these. Times like these, when I'm slipping, sliding! )

IT'S FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOW IT'S FRIDAY ALREADY. Week went by fast enough (as it has been). Weekend is here, I always look forward to the weekend and time spent in church. Right now I don't exactly feel that school sucks... but it does. School didn't hurt me much this week, probably because half the time in school I was half-awake. Hmmm right now I'm thinking I'd go "Thank goodness"/"Good riddance" the moment I'm out of school, but I might well just... sleep. There's not much of school left, yay!! yay! yay! yay!